...May your organs fail before your dreams fail you...
I was listening to a new song by The Matches when I heard that line in the lyrics. I have this innate ability to compare songs meanings to my life. Honestly, I think everyone really does that.
Anyway, this particular line caught my attention because it mirrored something I once said along the lines of, "I would rather die young and full of potential than older as a failure." So many people around me expect so much and I fear letting all of them down.
Even without the idea of the future, I also applied this to (of course) my situation. I would have much rather died than lived to see such an important part of my life disappear.
I wish this for anyone, that they would die happy and oblivious to reality rather than depressed and a failure.
2 comments:
back in high school, i would rather have died than to have lived through all that i ended up living through. everything kept getting thrown at me one after the other, and i just wanted to go to sleep and not wake up. a few months later, my brother beat me to it. and somehow after that, things somehow managed to continue to get worse. but i remember a certain someone who wouldnt let me let go of life, even though i wanted to. that certain someone was my only reason for bothering to take a(n unsteady) step forward, but forward nonetheless. within a 3 year time period, she was the only thing that could make me smile and look forward to the day. and that's you! it might (or might not) take a few years for life to get better and brighter, but it does happen! i'm happy now. it took me a long time to sort through things, but i'm also now glad that i suffered everything i did. you can make it through, too
You write very well.
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