Choices

I have been loyal and honest for five years.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
When you had no car I would wait for you to arrive at school despite the weather.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I survived on a diet of Gatorade and Rice Crispy Treats for an entire school year so you could have lunch.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I have skipped soccer practices in order to set things right with you.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
When you were sad I would hold you and sing ‘our song’ to make you smile.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I have stood up and defended you from slander several times and even had private discussions with people who have offended you.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I would always squeeze onto the edge of the bed to sleep so you would have plenty of space to sprawl out.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I have endured painful one-way arguments from my parents for defending you.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
At fairs and other games I would always win you prizes to show off and keep.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
In high school I gave you roses for each important day to us.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I have bleed for you to protect your honor.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I was willing to welcome a *beep* child into the world with you and raise it as my own.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I have sat back and watched as you publicly displayed your promiscuous behavior around others while we were together and yet endured it.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I have avoided killing or harming anything out of respect of your beliefs.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I proposed to you on Valentine’s night and loved you with all of my heart since we first met.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I have worked diligently to secure a future for us and our children so that we may live comfortably.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I have visited you when I knew harsh judgment awaited me if I was to be seen.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
When we made love I always made sure you were pleased before I allowed myself to finish.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
For every holiday, I have spent my last cent or even when I had no money I have done my best to present you with a gift that you would not be ashamed of receiving.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I have ‘dated’ people that I had absolutely no interest in at all in order for us to be together.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I have told white lie after white lie to spend more time with you.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I have protected you when you were intoxicated.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
Ha, I have asked a couple for a biscuit on Winter Formal night so you wouldn’t starve.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
I have spent endless amounts of hours talking to you at night on the phone just to hear your voice.
If he treats you better than that, let me know.
He may just be the one for you, but until hep proves himself I will always be more of a man to you than he will ever be.



I wrote this back in May and I guess I felt like posting it considering the circumstances...

What are you doing with your life...? You used to have everything planned out and be enthusiastic about your future career. Now you're just throwing school away all together to go live with him? Who are you going to help by doing that, other than yourself? I used to respect you so much for wanting to help people like me... I remember one of the last nights at the dorm where you told me to 'get over it' because she 'didn't die'. Does it matter? It still resulted in PTSD. I didn't choose this.

So what was your plan in staying up there for a few months? You going to get married because too many of your friends down here would object to it? You're going to get pregnant and you're never going to finish college...

If a self-fulfilling life is what you want, then by all means go for it. I just thought you better than that at one time...